Growth, At a High Cost
by Kurt Aschliman
I’m a procrastinator. Motivation seems to arrive only when a deadline is fast approaching. Blogging has no deadlines, and self imposed deadlines are meant to be broken from the beginning. Hence a good reason why my last post was from January. The chasm of time between posts has two other culprits: perfectionism and busyness. In fact, this summer has been the busiest one since I started working for Sanctus Real. It wasn’t set out to be so, but through many strange and frustrating circumstances, a lot of sleep and work hours were lost. I’ve also been trying to hard to be the perfect professional blogger. Yet isn’t the number one rule of blogging actually posting blogs? All that said, I’m working toward just writing instead of perfecting first.
So here’s a quick update on this summer:
LOUDERmedia is in full swing. Ben Stewart and I have spent quite a few hours together at local coffee shops designing and coding websites. We’ve had a lot of good times developing for some pretty awesome clients.
My job Sanctus Real has continued on in full force. We have had 34 shows since May all over the country. And we’re heading into an even busier time, soon to be out on tour with Casting Crowns. Yet I’m excited for the tour because I’ll actually have less to do than the one offs of the summer. The downside, being away from my wife, Hannah.
Speaking of Hannah, we both moved on campus at Belmont University as a result of her taking a Residence Director position. It’s interesting living on campus for the first time, as I transferred in and missed that experience altogether during my college years. Last week, students moved back and classes kicked into gear today. We live in an apartment style complex so it’s not much different than any other apartment. I’m just waiting for a drummer to be one of our neighbors. Luckily, I happen to know the one who can easily write people up for noise violations.
So as I look forward to the fall, I’m excited to see what will come. This summer was honestly difficult, with a lot of self reflection and digging to find out more about myself and my personality. I never experienced stress levels so high that I felt sick before this summer. I was never ahead on anything and probably could not have caught up even if I slept 4 hours a night and worked the remaining 20. Yet in making it through and looking back, I am finding growth through it. I will feel good about myself and my experiences so long as I can say I am growing in the process. So I would say this summer could be dubbed the one of growth, at a high cost.